Tired

I’m tired of trying. If you want me be with me if you don’t leave me alone. You can’t be with me & her at the same time. Don’t lie to me about her tell me the truth because from my point of view you have two. I try to fight for you but I’m threw. The battle is over the war has been won. I’m throwing in the towel. It’s now up to you to make the effort to talk to me chill with me be with me.

Bye

No sleep ever!

So it’s almost 3am I’m up and I have a 10 class…..yea I’m going to be sleepy lol

My random rant

Why is it me that always gets put in the most awkward yet difficult situations ever? I have to deal with the craziest and most jealous friends! Why is it that I always put up with people who treat me like crap? What’s up with me to always be nice and try not to make people uncomfortable? I don’t know what’s wrong with me one minute I’m the nicest person but then the next I’m not putting up with anything? Why do I hold in all the trash that’s thrown at me and then when I’m full I bust and make people feel like crap? I wish I could be better either I’m really nice and a pushover then the next I’m really rude and mean? Can I learn to balance both? I want to because I want to speak my mind but not to late I want to be able to hurt feelings and know that it was for a reason they needed to hear the truth not go back and say sorry! I want to be strong and not make it look like I am. I want real smiles and laughter. I want to feel real love and to love. I want a change in my life and I feel like it’s going to happen no matter if certain people like it or not. It’s my time to cut those damaged ends and let me grow into the person I want and need to be.

Bored

Bored out of my mind! Watching the grinch stole Christmas!

Work like you don’t need the money, love like you’ve never been hurt and dance like no one is watching.

"Never tell your problems to anyone…20% don’t care and the other 80% are glad you have them.
- Lou Holtz"

My aunt woke me up this morning around 7:30 to go grocery shopping, when I tell you I was soooo sleepy and my back hurt man it was so crazy! We were in the store for like 3 hours! I really am about to crash right now as i’m typing this post so I think im going to have to stop right here….

Quick note…..I HATE THE VAMPIRE DIARIES!!!!!!!! 

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When we first talked to each other
I knew we would always be friends.
Our friendship has kept on growing
And I’ll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem
And help dry the tears from my face.
You take away my sorrow
And put happiness in its place.

We can’t forget the fun we’ve had
Laughing ‘til our faces turn blue.
Talking of things only we find funny
People think we’re insane-If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
Thanks once again for being such a good friend
And being here with me through it all.
- Rachel Ellis

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